Father in heaven,

You are beautiful and powerful and I feel beautiful and full of hope BECAUSE OF YOU! Thank you for every breath I take, in and out, I'm all Yours and I thankfully give you all my joy <3! All my happiness and joy rests in You, and You make my heart full <3.

All my heart and soul,

Your daughter,

Lara <3

Something Unexpected

I know this is going to sound insane, but I am having a good day.

Hunh. Thank you, Lord! :):) I could get used to this :).

My insides are messed up.

Something is missing in my life. I am not at my best. I am not at my happiest. I am not comfortable. I am nervous. I am anxious. I am discontent. I wake up in the mornings feeling ill and ill prepared. I am constantly settling and constantly searching for things to make me feel better.

What would happen if I made it a point to spend a full hour every night doing what I need to do for me?

Is that even plausible?

See, I feel sick again.

Wanna Make-out?

Today we did a gallery walk. It was good. Then i showed pictures of my life. It was was good. Tonight I am going to drink wine. It will be good. Tonight I am going to read my Bible. Tonight I am going to pray. It's gonna be SO good.

It's all good.

continuation of the storm that is my life

okay. so it is still today except tonight. and today was...mmm...AWFUL. principal came in to help me out. ugh. i will get better. or at least i will give this a chance. i can only do all things when Christ is my strength. (i could write that as an if and only if statement, an iff statement, or as my calc student would say, an if-f statement...laughs) and, i will go where the Spirit blows me. right now i am in a whirlwind, a tornado, that is spinning me round and round and keeping me right here. rejoice rejoice again i say rejoice. rejoice in the Lord always again i say REJOICE!

The Monday Blues

This morning I am sitting in my classroom, 6:46 am, and am feeling quite HOT (AC not working!!!) and ill. Ill over the day. Ill over my life as a teacher.

A janitor named Sean just came in and talked to me for a bit. That really helped. I think the key to my success here, my make or break, is personal relationships. I have to have friends to look forward to seeing at school. Seeing Tristin this weekend at Nicole's wedding made that pretty clear to me. MUST HAVE FRIENDS.

Must have time in the morning to pray and read God's word.

Mah.

WEEK TWO, DAY 3 (THURSDAY SEPT 8 2011) FML NO LML (LOVE MY LIFE, SERIOUSLY) (IT IS JUST HARD BUT THIS IS THE BIGGEST THRILL EVER.EVER.EVER.)

Today was insane. Literally a zoo in the classroom. I hope I never forget this day, because honestly it was quite entertaining to see a classroom like that. It was like Mr. Harris' classroom in high school on crazy lab days.

Tomorrow I think I should start with expectations.

I need to see Tyler tonight. I think I am going to try to find him at the dorms since that is where he lives. He is SO capable. He crumpled his paper today. He was so frustrated he crumpled it up.

WHAT am I doing?

They should work in groups, but the rule should be that I can't hear them talk. Inside voices.

We need seating arrangements.

Gar.

Funkle :P

mmmmmmmmm rocking back and forth mmmmmmmmm what do i do how do i change/fix this.

five new kids walked in during the middle of class. all upper classmen. the first upperclassmen in the class. twice as big as the other kids. the room is a pit.

i have a sub tomorrow and nothing planned. good. Godddd help me. PLEASE.

Right Here, Right Now, In the mailroom, my moment

Today is my first day of my second week of school. I don't know exactly what I am feeling, but I know I would be feeling better if I was closer to Jesus. I am sitting in the mail room, with other staff in here, but I just needed to get my thoughts more visible to myself. I think the key to a good class period is presenting material that students can handle, letting them know what is coming, and my attitude. Today can be a great day. Keep God as my focus. Love Him, Love Others. Love.

Someone left me an inspirational magnet in my mailbox. Perfect :) .

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